So uh, Saturday some friends were gunna hang out and then they couldnt. so i spent the rest of the day (3-11) writing and recording a song. its a real rough cut, but let me know what you think.

melodica- mt

pump organ- mt

millions of voices- mt52

guitar-mt

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Currently Listening Whatever and Ever Amen By Ben Folds Five Steve's Last Night In Town see related

Steve's Last Night In Town

Man, this song is real good. The whole cd's pretty good actually. But this song makes me think about Steve Boyett. He's getting married ya know. It's like a month and a half away or so, his wedding that is. I wonder if he'll let us have sleepovers at his house or not. I wonder if Nelly will cook lots of food. Steve's a pretty good guy. His wedding will probably be lots of fun and stuff.

I'm thinking that life is real good most of the time. I wonder what makes it so good. I mean, God makes it good I know that. But I wonder about other cultures and if there lives are real good. I'm sure they're pretty good. I wonder if they are as good as mine, or maybe better. What makes life good; things, relationships, spirituality, education, acting on desires?

 There's a baseball player nicknamed A-Rod or something like that. Apparently he's good at stuff like that and so he makes 19 million dollars a season. I suppose I have a bias against sports already because I'm not good at them but this really upsets me. I think it says a lot about our culture and what we think is good. 19 million dollars for playing a sport. I don't deny that it takes a lot of time and skill/practice to play the sport as well as him, but I don't understand why he deserves 19 million dollars.

My friend Nathaniel is speaking at h20/Grace Bible Church this Sunday night. I invite everyone to come and listen to him speak. He's 48 years full of wisdom. He's from Liberia and he just came to the states about two or three years ago to get further ministry training. He was originally going to go to another school that he had a scholorship to, but then they closed down so now he is going to Moody with me. He hasn't had enough money for a plane ticket to go back and visit his wife and children and it really breaks my heart. He is going to be sharing his testimony and telling stories of what happened during the civil war in Liberia. Please come and bring friends and money if you want to help him get home this summer. If not, maybe A-Rod will let Nathaniel play one inning of baseball and make enough for about 10 round trip tickets.

one thing i'm learning about myself more and more is the rebellious nature i possess. i think that this quality helped me in high school because it caused me to rebel against the norm. becuase i went to a normal public high school the norm was not something to be desired by a follower of Christ and so it was good that my rebellious nature caused me not to desire it. however, now that i go to a Christian college it is becoming more of a problem. i still long to rebel against the norm and be different, but now the norm is not so bad. everyone at school loves Jesus and most like following the rules and stuff like that. this makes me not want to do these things, besides for loving Jesus.

this is just something i have noticed, that i desire to be different just for different's sake. and so there's this 50/50 reasoning of why i'm glad i'm here and why it might not be good. i'm glad i'm here because i love what i'm learning and i love the city and i'm making some friends. i'm not so glad because theres a struggle for me to want to break rules just because no one else does. maybe i'll just fight everyone.

so, i was reading throuhg my old entries and it was interesting.

it really made me miss a lot of people, and it brought up the issue that i had a lot of nonChristian friends. now i don't really have any. i am very very very thankful for the highschool experience that God blessed me with. I was able to meet so many people with various beliefs and just be friends with them because of who they were. Of course i wish i would have poored my life into them and really loved them, but i failed. i am realizing how amazing that highschool period is for meeting people and building relationships with them. maybe i will be able to rekindle some of those relationships, maybe not. i really enjoyed reading my entries and more so the comments that my friends left on those silly entries. if your reading this, go ahead and read some of my previous entries from way back, they are silly entries.

Thank You Father for the people You have so graciously let into my life. I ask that You will continue to place the most unlikely people into my life. Amen

hey so, i'm going to be walking in the World Vision Aids Walk tomorrow, you should too, it's only like three miles which is nothing!

Tomorrow is World Aids Day for Aids awareness. If you can't walk the walk in  downtown chicago thats fine, but hey, if you want to support me and give children futures and stuff, then go to my page www.firstgiving.com/matthewtinken and donate some mulah. It would be a appreciated and stuff. Tell your friends!